And so it begins.... again..

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Just a quick post to let you know that we have taken the first step to getting back on the Fertility Treatment Train, after much time trying to heal, I finally brought myself to make an appointment with my Fertility Specialist to start planning our next cycle. Embryo Transfer will most likely go ahead in September.

Having to remain hopefull!
Tash

Time heals..

Hi Everyone,

Just a quick update to let you guys know that we have been going okay. We have been taking a break from the whole fertility treatment world. We are moving in a couple of months and once we are settled in we will take on the challenge of another Embryo Transfer. We have our four frost babies waiting for us.

Still clinging to hope. Some days are more positive than others.

I have started a new blog about organising the home and diy projects, event planning etc. If you get a chance take a look. http://www.featherdusting.blogspot.com/

Tash

Not ready to let go yet...

Destination Unknown

Life is so hard sometimes!

You know the hardest reality I have had to face, as a woman with infertility, is the very real chance that I will grow old and never see my own children play, learn, grow. To face the possibility that I will go to my grave without leaving a future generation. That my family tree will stop at me. That I will never be called Mummy. These things are by far the hardest things to fear and comprehend.

They say every step you take is one step closer, but what if you don't know which turn to take or where to stop- destination unknown.

Hope is something we all can normally muster. Though there comes a point when hope runs out.

So not only am I heading on a journey to this unknown place but now I've also run out of fuel. Some may call this reaching a crossroad or maybe it's more like driving into a wall. I know one thing, it's going to take every part of me to put on my running shoes and find a spot to refuel and find some guidance.

Today I lost something beyond comprehension. It took some of me with it and I will never be the same.

Reality is hard to deal with when you no longer can find an illusion or a dream to hide between.

Me

IVF ICSI UPDATE

Hi Everyone,

So just a quick update on this cycle. I had my Embryo Transfer on Tuesday and all went well. Still in a small amount of pain and some nausea, but overall feel like I'm on the mend. In the end four embryos made it to the stage where they could be frozen. We are really happy with these results.

I won't be updating to much from now on, and we understand people's curiosity and care, but we would ask that people don't ask us the results of this transfer. We will be very happy to share with everyone, but it is very difficult for us to celebrate early on and if it is unsuccessful we will need our space. Thank you for your understanding.

I'd like to take this opportunity to thank everyone for the messages of support we have received. We truly are grateful.

Positive Thoughts!
Tash

Day 12- IVF ICSI 2

Hi There,

Just a quick update to let you know we have had good news.
From the 10 Eggs we have 8 Embryos. 1 egg was immature and one Embryo succumbed already.
I will be bugging the lab tomorrow and Sunday although the nurse wasn't sure if they would take calls over the weekend otherwise I'll speak to them Monday. Embryo Transfer is booked for 7:30am on Tuesday.
Still feeling a little under the weather but hoping my body resumes normal functions soon.

Tash

Day 11-IVF ICSI 2 Egg Pick Up

Hi Guys,

Just a quick update to let you know the Egg Pick Up went well and my Fertility Specialist was able to retrieve 10 eggs. He told me before surgery to expect that only 30% of these eggs to be mature due to my PCOS. I recovered well with no anxiety/agitation issues this time with the anesthetic. The poor Anesthetist had a hard time getting a vain for the Canula, but I was very lucky to have my doctor with me the whole time offering support. I am on a high protein and liquid diet to try eliminate any Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome symptoms. I have not managed to pass much and do feel quite bloated but it's very early days. Tomorrow at 7:30AM the nurses will call me to check on me and at 11:00AM we will get our Fertilisation Report from our Doctor to let us know how many Embryo Babies we have.

Would apprciate your prayers and support as we enter the last part of this cycle. I am trying to not over think everything at the moment and this is being made easier because I'm drowsy and have slept most of the day.

This picture was taken this afternoon with our Feather Baby Desmond who couldn't wait to have snuggles when I was in bed and did a Hudini style trip to find me in my room. Sweet thing.

Tash