Life is so hard sometimes!
You know the hardest reality I have had to face, as a woman with infertility, is the very real chance that I will grow old and never see my own children play, learn, grow. To face the possibility that I will go to my grave without leaving a future generation. That my family tree will stop at me. That I will never be called Mummy. These things are by far the hardest things to fear and comprehend.
They say every step you take is one step closer, but what if you don't know which turn to take or where to stop- destination unknown.
Hope is something we all can normally muster. Though there comes a point when hope runs out.
So not only am I heading on a journey to this unknown place but now I've also run out of fuel. Some may call this reaching a crossroad or maybe it's more like driving into a wall. I know one thing, it's going to take every part of me to put on my running shoes and find a spot to refuel and find some guidance.
Today I lost something beyond comprehension. It took some of me with it and I will never be the same.
Reality is hard to deal with when you no longer can find an illusion or a dream to hide between.
Me
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